This is going to be a short and sweet entry. I just wanted to detail very briefly what food has done for me. I warn you ahead of time that this will be very sentimental. I am in a place where I feel as though I can finally express my love for all things edible in a concise manner. It’s been a long time coming to get to this point. But for the first time in my life, I feel like I am exactly where I should be doing exactly what I was born to do. Food is the cornerstone of that.
My entire life has seemingly been a mad dash to find where I belong and what my purpose is. I’m sure this is pretty normal. But I never thought I’d find a passion for something deep enough to pursue it as a career. When I think about food, all the anxiety of “finding my place” disappears. I’ve always loved food. I’ve always found that my life makes the most sense when I can sit down over a plate of something delicious. It’s the only time my anxiety abates. The only time my mind will slow down enough to be in the moment. Something clicks when I eat.
Food has made me realize the possibilities of how wonderful life can be. As a depressive with high anxiety, it is difficult to find the motivation to do anything sometimes. Either of these disorders can arbitrarily be triggered at any given time. But food and eating have allowed me to find something to always look forward to. There’s no end to what I can do with food. I can create something, find a new restaurant, read about new developments in the culinary world, etc. I find comfort in all of this. It all makes me look forward to a new day or a more positive outlook.
Finally, I am passionate about food because of its disarming. You can create relationships and old foster ones with a great meal. I bond with my loved ones through food. I travel and meet new people because of the food. The relaxation and happiness that something as simple as food brings can’t be replicated. I’ve never felt closer to people than when I’m sharing a meal with them. I’ve never felt more in my element than when I’m talking about food to others who enjoy it the way I do. I love food because it makes sense to me. It’s what I’m supposed to focus on. It’s my passion.
